Today is the day.
After an exhausting weekend, I am due to put in my resignation today. I hate doing things like this. I am so incredibly nervous and it is driving me crazy…. causing more nervousness.
I like where I’m at. I get treated like shit, but I like it here. I know my job like the back of my hand. I built the network for crying out loud! It is comfortable and I’m still learning a lot.
Where the new job is, I will learn so much more. It is a bigger company with a much more complex network than what I have here. It’s still a contract job, but it “should” be a great opportunity.
I still hate having to give my notice. I am angry that the people here just don’t seem to want me. Not everyone, just the people that matter it seems.
While in the middle of writing this, I talked to the other IT guy and he took it well. I think he knew it was coming. I don’t think this should come as a shock really to anyone. They all know I’m not happy in the situation that I’m in. Maybe they think I wouldn’t call their bluff and they could keep going on thinking they could get away with treating me like some temp workhorse. And I don’t even mind the workhorse part! I actually prefer it, but I need to give back.
My stress level is through the roof right now and half of this probably doesn’t make any sense. What I’d really like to do is go back to bed and just sleep until things get better. Unfortunately, that’s a dream that can never come true.
I’ll let you all know how things turn out.
So I finally talked to the owner and HR. I got pretty much what I expected: a “Thanks for coming and good luck to you” response. I can’t say that I’m surprised at all. The IT manager was all pissed off that they didn’t make a counter-offer. I told him that I would’ve been shocked if they did.
I honestly didn’t know what to expect from the meeting. Again, I’m not surprised at their response/reaction. I guess it’s all for the best and is what was meant to be.